You Fucking Liar

"You Fucking Liar"

This is to the ass wipe that

thinks that everything's water under the bridge.

It's not.

I still remember what you did to me and

I just want to let you know when I see

you in the hallway all I think about

is stabbing you with a sharp ass

pencil right to the neck.

So you better watch out 'cause

an insane bitch is after your ass.

I Belive

"I Belive"
That everything falls in
it's place one day.
Yeah, I still remain hopeful
even if the world just died.

Message

"Message"

I messaged you while I was

away at some camp.

Have you forgoten our secret

deal?

The Dirty Little Secret Of Leigh Kitty Scarlet Preview.....

So this is a new story I'm writing, here's the 1st chapter if you are interested. Comments are appreciated.

"The Dirty Little Secret Of Leigh Kitty Scarlet"

1

Yeah, yeah, I know what I’m doing is wrong, blah, blah, blah. I know my sixth time in your office in a day.

“This is a serious offense. Not only were you caught drawing graffiti on the football locker room entrance but you were also caught stealing some of the boy’s football equipment.” Mr. White lectured to me as my mind wandered off to the early fall leaves falling off the trees.

“Hey, young lady are you even paying attention?” He asked me as I snapped out of my trance.

“Look, I don’t care how many times you’re going to give me detention but, I’m graduating this year and you’ll never see me again, so just spare me the talk and give me the damn detention already so I can go back to class.” I said as I held my palm open waiting for that pink ticket that meant staying after school until 3:00 and going home for tomorrow and the next two weeks including Saturday mornings.

“You know, for sassing me you get a two Saturday detention added up to the two week detention I was going to give you for defacing the school and stealing equipment. Now go leave and go back to class, I never ever want to see you in this office again, understand?” He asked me as I got up, picked up my bag and walked out his office.

“I understand.” I mumbled as I walked out into the empty hallway.

A couple of boys were hanging out by their lockers, I recognized one of them as being the football captain and the other one I didn’t know well.

“Oooooooohhhh, here comes little miss dark princess. Please, don’t drag me down to the under world.” The captain said to me as the other one laughed at his sarcasm.

“Look, you piece of shit, don’t push me ‘cause I will take you down with me, Mitch. By the way, you know your football padding, yeah I set that on fire last night.” I said as I stuck out my tongue at him and walked away.

“You selfish little bitch! You set my shit on fire??? What the hell’s your problem?” He yelled as he grabbed a hold of my arm, almost crushing it with his grip.

“Get your beefy ass hand off my arm, ass wipe!” I said as I turned around to look at him.

“Not until you apologize for setting my football equipment on fire.” He said as his eyes narrowed, his jaw tightening.

“No, not until you return everything you stole from me last year.” I said as I stared right through his thick head.

“You know I can’t.” He said as his grip on me got tighter.

“So I guess, I’m not apologizing.” I said indifferently. He loosened his grip on me then, realizing that getting his equipment back was a lost cause.

“Yeah, that’s what I thought, so I’m going to pretend that this never even happened and walk away now. When you’re ready to give me back what you stole, call me.” I said as I flipped my

long black hair over my shoulder, my high heels clicking as I turned around and walked back to

class. “Ah, Miss. Scarlet, you’ve decided to join us. Do you mind telling me why?” Mrs. Lira asked I gave her my late slip.

“I was at the twelfth grade office this morning so that’s why I’m late.” I said as walked to my seat.

“Well, we were reviewing how to find the circumference of a circle.” She said as she handed me a sheet with formulas for circles.

“Okay class, your homework for tonight is Assignment #1 pages 749 to 751, numbers 4, 6 through 8, 15 through 20, 22, 24 and 37, it should be on your assignment sheet.” She said the homeroom bell rang.

“Please stand for the pledge of allegiance.” One of the secretaries announced over the intercom as we all stood and faced the flag that was hanging in the classroom as we recited the pledge back.

“Good morning samurais, today the football team is holding tryouts for the 2011-2012 season, after school from 2:00 to 4:00 if anyone is interested, all newcomers are welcomed. It will be held outside on the football field.” The principle announced before I spaced out. I got an idea! I am trying out for the team.

“Now, please turn on your televisions to watch the rest of the announcements.” The secretary said as she turned off the intercom. I sat in silence watching the morning announcements and thought out my master plan to ruin Mitch’s life like he did mine. The second bell rang, taking me out of my trance. I guess I’m going to have to make him apologize for real this time. I thought as I walked down the stairs and almost falling at that.

*If it helps, I suggest you go on playlist.com and look up "High School Football Hero" by A.F.I to read along to.* * Type it in the name of the song like this: High School Football Hero- A.F.I*

I Think

"I Think"

You'll look better if you

were nicer to me. 'Cause you

act like there's no one

around to hear you scream

my name in your nightmares.

Life As I Knew It

"Life As I Knew It"
I'm sorry I'm so broke.
I know this is the last thing that you
expected from me.
But it ended all too soon.
And I'm left with one shoe and
empty pockets and debts as tall as
a sky scraper.

Have You Forgotten Me?

"Have You Forgotten Me?"

Did you forget me just yesterday?
You tried to erase my image in your head.

Did it work?
No, because I'm still here,

haunting you.

Florecita Rockera

"Florecita Rockera"

I know that you don't belive my

colors of plaid.

The rocker flower has bloomed and

it has thorns but I can only hold it,

'cause I forgot to tell you it's a Venus Flytrap.

Grey Morning

"Grey Morning"

This is for me and for you.

You don't even understand where

I'm coming from.

Do you even know who I am?
Or are you just a cheep fake?

The Key

"The Key"

I should've told you about the

time me and you were together.

Though, that never really

happened did it.

Finals....

I feel really sad right now, 'cause I just took my first period finals. It feels like I didn't get enough time to spend with some of the seniors and the other kids in my class. It's sorta sad too because I won't see those people anymore afther the 10th. I mean yeah, I'm happy that summer's coming but it's bittersweet at the same time 'cause I won't get the time to talk to any of you anymore or see your faces when I walk into CW, and I'm going to miss that alot. Plus, when the seniors graduate, who will I hang out with after all of this is done?

Forgive Me

"Forgive Me"
I know that you feel
like I bring you
down.
I know that you hate me
secretly but I don't care
'cause I 'm still here
and your not.

Right Shoe

"Right Shoe"
My, my, what pretty
feet you have, you say with
malice in your voice.
Really, I'm just one shoe
down. I say as I stare
down at my feet covered in
mud.

Crap

"Crap"

I know you feel like

crap right now,

but I'm here to tell

you that you

are crap but

it's okay 'cause you

already knew that.

Don't Lie To Me

"Don't Lie To Me"

You told me you loved me,

but now I'm standing here

holding the pieces of my

heart mixed with yours in

a bag. And it's all your

fault that it shattered

and broke.

Hay

"Hay"

You're one in a

million.

Like a needle in a

hay stack.

Or like winning the

lottery.

You know you're

one of a kind.

So....

"So...."

I'm not going to be

some little doll for you.

I chose my own path,

my own map, my

own plans.

On the road with my

1968 convertible

with out you.

Shift

"Shift"

I heard the rumors

about me.

I know that the person who

is spreading them

around is a liar.

Allergic

"Allergic"

I've been there and back

I hate to see you without a

shirt on and spraying yourself with

axe. I can't stand the stench 'cause

my eyes water at it and my mouth opens

and I start to laugh.

I

"I"

I fell and I got back up
I broke my bones and I never screamed
I got scrapes on my knees and I didn’t cry
I got bruises and I never knew why
But the one thing I know is that I can still defeat you in a game of war

I'm

"I'm"

Likely to break your

heart.

Likely to surpass you in

everything.

Not able to show

emotions.

I Won't

"I Won't"

Chase you down,

fight you,

call you out and challenge you.

I won't even notice that you're

sitting next to me all along.

Classic

"Classic"

I look like a body of work,

like a 1958 Chevy or something.

Yet I'm hollowed out on the

inside.

Ghost

"Ghost"

I fly right on by,

the city lights are blinding

and I can see overhead

and I don't think about it.

Fake Out

"Fake Out"

Drip, drip, drop

down 5 windows

and you hit the pavement

like a cat.

Yeah, that only happens

in video games.

It's Like

"It's Like"

This: you wake up

and you look out your window.

You hope for another pretty

day and you never get one.

What now? Are you going to give up?

No, I don't think so.

Something

"Something"

Was here, so where

did it go? Did you

kill it outback with

the rest of my dreams

or did you let it run wild

kinda like how you wanted

it in the first place.

Lady Gaga

"Lady Gaga"

This is to you Gaga:

You make my heart puke

with disgust everytime I hear one

of your songs on the radio.

Failure

"Failure"

Through all my failures

in life, you've been there

for me.

Now that you're gone,

I blame you for letting me

fall.

Roses

"Roses"

The perfume you gave me

for my birthday smells like

Death. So, question, is

that what you really think of me?

'Cause you've already fallen

and are dead to me.

Silence

"Silence"

My boyfriend's sister

is silence.

She never says a word.

All she does is stare into

the vast emptiness

An Ode To Seniors

"An Ode To Seniors"

To the 2010 Seniors

of CW 1 and 2:

To Chelsea: You're always

the quiet one, when I wave

to you, you wave back and smile.

To Bobby, Justin and Joe:

I don't have much to say, so I might as

well tell you, you guys kick major ass.

To Casey and Casey: You girls are

almost like twins, commenting on

my poems together.

To Eli: Oh Eli, you're always

possitive even in your rare insults.

To Nora: You're smile always

brings the sunshine to a crappy

day that I have sometimes.

To Melissa: Almost the same

height as me, (Almost). You're one

of the people I can relate to.

To Shayna: The perso I'll always

call mom. Yes, I said it, mom.

You remind me of the wisdom that

a mother has.

To Dillion: You're a lion. I still

remeber whe you were sitting

in a group and you said that "I

will protect my cubs."

And last but not least

To Emily: So many things I

could say, but the thing I can

say about you is that

you tell it like it is.

No Bull Shit, no cutting around

the coners, just the truth.

And that's why I'll miss you guys.

Run Away

"Run Away"
My line of vision is blurred.

An empty hallway, no one near.

Empty class rooms with no teachers in sight.

My head's swimming as I scream for help.

You, chasing me down, rabid.

You're foaming at the mouth, you're mind's cluttered.

You can't think straight anymore.

I hide in a coner of a darken room.

You find me and I know it's the end.

Loneliness Is My Boyfriend

"Loneliness Is My Boyfriend"

My boyfriend's name is Loneliness.

He is the son of Life and Death.

I know that he will be there for me

'cause at the end of the day, his arms

are wrapped around my torso.

If I were....

"If I were...."

A jelly fish, would I be a good swimmer?

An octopus, would I be able to defend my self?

You, would I be a good liar?

Why

"Why"

Does it have to always

Be me on the receiving end of

Your constant yelling?

Am I that inanimate?

Or am I just hollow?

Because

"Because"

I was there for you.

Now you're gone

and I'm left alone

to discover my own

path.

Fall Out

"Fall Out"

We were best friends

until you accused me

of steeling your boyfriend.

Now he's telling you

lies and you belive him.

To me, you're rotted from

the inside out.

Hallways and Theresholds

“Hallways and Thresholds”

I walk everyday into

a crowd of people.

Pushing, screaming

and I just weave right

through. I get to class

around the same time everyday

since I’ve been here.

The 1^st period bell rings and

it’s on with the learning,

yelling, juvenile delinquencies.

I go to lunch, see enemies

friends. Before I

know it, its 5 minutes before

2:20 and I’m anxious to

leave. Board the bus, get

home, do homework, go

swimming, eat and sleep.

Start all over at

4 a.m. It’s just another

day in high school.

The Vine

"The Vine"

We hang out, attached at

the hip.

But lately you're suffocating

me with your vine-like fingers.

Feelings

"Feelings"

I know I should'nt but

I always let my feelings get

in the way of our friendship.

The Old Things

"The Old Things"

We sometimes revert back to

the old things we did before

we turned into blood suckers.

So welcome back to your

horror.

Yeah....No

"Yeah....No"

You want me to be a bad ass?

Okay.

You want me to curse you out?

Maybe.

You want me to smoke, do drugs and drink?

Yeah....No.

5 Reasons

"5 Reasons"

Here are the 5 reasons why I miss you:

1: You're funny and always make me laugh

2: You always know what to say

3: You're adorable in your mannerisms

4: You accept me and love me for who I am

5: You understand me even if I don't make sense

Nants Ingonyama Agithi Baba

"Nants Ingonyama Agihit Baba"

My team are a pack of

Lions.

Put to the challenge and we

Come out clawing.

Sorry, was that your Iphone

We just destroyed?

Behind Enemy Lines

"Behind Enemy Lines"

We have guns pointed at

Each other

Locked and loaded

We fire

Fall back into

Reality

Let Me Live....Damn It!

"Let Me Live....Damn It!"
All that stupid conformity and for what? You tell me my dear. Or should I say the chicks who walk around the halls thinking that they're all that and shit and really they just end up being that first batch of cookies. Dude, I'm over trying to be the popular one in the room or the attention whore in the hallways. No thanks, I've learn to see life from a new perspective. I'm always told that being popular is stupid and not a big deal. Then why glorify it if it's supposedly not a "BIG DEAL????" I mean we're influenced by the media to wear tight clothing and have so much make up on that you end up looking like a cake face. Yeah, who wants to look like a drag queen? But believe me there is some people that go to that extent. So why in the hell do we need the media and peer pressure influence us so much? I know, because we're insecure about ourselves. And we worry so much about our outer appearance that we're not looking from the inside out. Then you get people who try to live out others people's lives in hopes of becoming famous or some shit like that. I'm sorry that I have to be the one to break the news to you but, that's not going to get you anywhere. So now I'm just asking have you ever tried to live your life the way you want to live it or do you just go around and live other people's lives?

Video Vixens

"Video Vixens"

Okay, we all have seen them. You know the girls who dance around in videos with their junk hanging out and they think that's "Sexy". Well, I beg to differ. It's so gross to see some chick in the camera's face shaking all they got to the rest of the freaking world. I ask you where has self-respect gone? Then, the next thing you know, guys end up like Tiger Woods and other celebrities with these girls who have no self respect and think that the easiest way to make money is through selling themselves. After, you end up like Shayna's monologue, you know with a stupid sex video and your face plastered all over the news and your sick, disgusting video all over the web. You know that kind of crap doesn't go away that easily. Everyone's all over that shit the minute they get a taste of it. Then, the next thing anyone knows is that now you have to make a public apology to all of the people who saw this said video and all the young minds you end up scaring. Then say about 2 to 3 years later the whole thing blows over and you end up being a faceless slut who saw her 15 minutes of fame flash by. So I ask you, is your self respect worth the 15 minutes of fame or the 2 to 3 years of torture?

No Duh

"No Duh"

Okay so now you think I'm

easy to play

Well, think again

How To Make A Frien-emy

"How To Make A Frien-emy"

1/2 a tea spoon of bitch

a dash of kindness

a pound of back stab

3/4 cup of whore

2 cups of fake everything

5 cups of tanning oil

2 bowls full of tight clothing

Stir, Mix, Blend and bake at 360 degrees slut

Enjoy.

What Up

"What Up"

The sky,

the celing,

the roof.

You when I roundhouse kick you.

East Jesus Nowhere

"East Jesus Nowhere"
Today started like any other Saturday. (Although, my last Saturday was anything but.) Anyway, I get up at like 9 am and I'm just like "Why am I up this early to begin with any way?" Then, I remember that I went to bed mad early. I really don't know why but I guess I'm just totally done with everything and just want school to be over already so I can start on my vacation. I mean yeah school is just a waste of time and it's so boring and stuff and all you do is re-learn everything that you've be learning since like kindergarten. Well, back to the story. So then I remember that today, my g-ma was having a house warming party to celebrate the occasion that she has bought a house with my g-pa. (Yes, I see my grandparents as Gangstas)
It was so cold outside that I swear I almost died, but that's besides the point. I'm at my grandparents house and I see people from the hood that I've never met before come to the house and I'm like "Who are these people?" To make a long story short 'cause I've made it this monologue long enough, I've made two new friends here in east Jesus nowhere.

Sinister

"Sinister"

I've started a fire

You're in the middle of it

Melting.

You scream and I don't

care 'cause you deserve

it.

Sorry

"Sorry"

I'm not going to be

this little potrait that you

want me to be.

No thanks I rather live

my way.

Baby Powder

"Baby Powder"

It hits you in the face.

No warning signs.

It's me the girl who died for you.

You're So....

"You're So...."

I'm so what????

Tell me, I'd like to know.

So you want to be just like me, huh?

Well what you need is a good butt kicking.

But that's just my opinion.

Published

"Published"

Since I'm published now, it gives me the right to be mean.

But I won't 'cause I'll just be honest for a moment or two.

The night I show up to the induction ceremony you weren't there.

What happened??

Snooze Fest

"Snooze Fest"

You ask a lot of questions.

Is it to annoy me or is it something else?

Are you trying to be smart or trying to be friends?
But all you do is bore me, so come up with something interesting for once.

Zenon

"Zenon"

Ha ha, you think I'll fall for your lies.

No, I don't think so.

We're two diffrent elements.

And you just don't get it.

Tear Away

"Tear Away"

I hold your letter in my hand.

You walk away as if you act like nothing ever happened.

Yeah, screw you too.

Bottled Up

"Bottled Up"

I'm a ticking time bomb ready to explode.

My rage is like dynamite going off.

You're in my line of fire and you start ranting about something so pointless.

"Shut Up! Just shut your mouth and stop talking!"

I yell at you while hurting myself in the process.

Shock

"Shock"

So you let the shock settle.

Yeah, you're reading this post and thinking to yourself:

"Who is this?". I know I've been lying to you.

I Play So Dirty I Make A Football Player Look Clean

"I Play So Dirty I Make A Football Player Look Clean"

I may look clean and proper on the outside of things

Though my heart beats like the snarl of an angry dragon

Breathing fire as I play you like a record being scratched

I use you for my own game

You....not knowing and yet so willing

Yep, that's me

The girl who plays so dirty I make a football player look clean

So I'm Just Going To Have To Be Honest

"So I'm Just Going To Have To Be Honest"

We're standing in the middle of the hallway after school.

You're pouring out your feelings in the most cheesy way.

And I'm just looking at you like What's up with you now???

Then you ask me what do I think.

I say: "I have to be honest with you and tell you that I was not paying attention."

You brush it off like it's no biggie and I shrug my shoulders and walk away.

Looking Up From When I'm Down

"Looking Up From When I'm Down"

How can I write this letter to you when my fingers just fly?

Yeah, I e-mail you and nothing. I wait for your call and nothing.

I guess you don't want anything to do with me.

That's okay 'cause for all the guys I'm writting to.

You know, the ones who like to play with my feelings.

Guess what, I'm looking down on you guys now.

Yup It's Him

"Yup It's Him"

You ask me what makes me so depressed.

Why the only thing I talk about is him.

He's the only thing that keeps me going even if I don't want to.

The Break Up

"The Break Up"

Are we like a bad thing, you and I?

I feel like when people ask us if we're going out, you're in denial.

I can't belive that you would try to hide us for your rep.

I guess this is the last time. I am writting to you to tell you that this is our break up.

Tell Me

If anyone wants to add that's totally cool, so far this is all I got...

V1: I want you to tell me that every thing is alright. (*)= Screaming
And all of their screaming is just in my head.
Please say it over and over and over again....
Chorus: 'Cause I can't take it. I don't like being burned at the stake.
Everything I say is the truth in my world but the just shut me out.
*They Can't handle it! They can't belive it! Their world falls apart at the seams*

What it's like to be me....

"What it's like to be me"

This is me:

Shorts, pants, shirts and sneakers.

Sometimes though, I will wear a dress.

Sorry that the person you wish I was is not me.

'Cause I love me the Japanese Culture.

Honors

"Honors"

I'm out for this, trying to own the world.

You basically lie to me every day and I take it with no regrets.

I at least have an Honors code that I follow by.

Unlike you who has nothing to anything.

The Anti-Me

"The Anti-Me"

I am not the person you think I am.

Sorry, but I don't feel like being the anti me today.

It's just me.

Pink and Blue

"Pink and Blue"

The color of my nails are the colors of my clothes.

I try to match everything with my nails.

Sorry if you don't like it but you're not me.

Who I Really Am....

"Who I Really Am...."

I want to be a Kabuki dancer.

Or maybe be a Japanese school girl.

Even be a Geisha.

All I know is what ever I choose to be,

I'll still be me.

To The Hat8rs

"To The Hat8rs"

You guys love to hate me.

I love to see you try to mess me up.

Sorry, but I always win in the end.

Stand Alone

"Stand Alone"

One is a lonely number.

I'm the only person who knows how it feels to be like that.
Yeah, I know what you're thinking. That I must not

know what I'm talking about half the time. No, I'm

not stupid, I just know how it feels to be you.

Waking Up in Wonderland

"Waking Up in Wonderland"

I hit the snooze button on my alarm again.

This time though, I felt like I was in my own nightmare.

'Cause there was people dancing on roofs and I was there all alone.

I saw you there, but there was something wrong with your eyes.

I think you were blind. I called your name out but you never saw me.

So now I guess that you can't see what hits you between the eyes.

Super Jock

"Super Jock"

Yeah I know what you're thinking.

Your probably saying "This is not the same person."

Oh, but it is. Now, though I'm a super jock.

"How?", your probably asking yourself.

It's a little thing called a varsity letter.

I did'nt like it either, being called a super jock and all.

What ever, at least I'm not stuck up like the rest of them.

Puck

"Puck"

Swinging my hockey puck

right for your face. I try to

break your nose with my wrath

and it works 'cause it hits you

right between the eyes.

Skipping

"Skipping"

I chose to skip school

today. Yeah, I'm real bad now.

Who cares if you mar your education?

It's not like it's going to get us anywhere.

You would be saying that if only I had not stopped

you from ruining your life by skipping school for one day.

Blah

"Blah"

Yeah, yeah I get it.

I'm no good for you.

You think that being the

only one who can

play you at your own game

and then beating you is retarded.

Well think again, 'cause I play

good at games.

Dead Line

"Dead Line"

Wake up and you have

your set ways of doing things.

It bothers you when things are

not what you wanted them to

be. So when you fall out of

the thin line I won't be

there to tell you that

you shouldn't be so stubborn.

Me Miself and Yo

"Me Mi-self and Yo"

I know I shouldn't be

so selfish as to say that

the only person that I like

is myself at this time. I

can put up with my own mishaps

and can still kick your butt in

swimming. Yeah, it may sound

conceited but at least I'm

not superficial and all into

my self like the rest of them.

Mainichi

"Mainichi"

Every day I wake up and

see your face in the hall.

I usually feel nothing now that

you've turned me numbed.

Even a burn, that your

"so called" girlfriend tries

to inflict does not penetrate.

I'm icy and you melt at the

sight of me.

Stuck Up

"Stuck Up"

You're the most stuck

up person I know.

Yet, I always fall for

guys like you.

I guess I have to be

in the "In Crowd"

to be in your heart.

Sorry Hun, but I know what I'm doing

"Sorry Hun, but I know what I'm doing"

I don't need your advice to

live my life. I just want

to be me and not be like you

who is superficial and likes to

kill dreams.

Welcome to the Doll House

"Welcome to the Doll House"

You walk in and the door closes

on you. It traps you into the inner

world that you trespassed in.

The walls start to crumble and I

stand there, pale white like a ghost.

"Welcome to the doll house." I say as

I walk towards you, thunder suddenly

cracks the sky. Lightning separates

us as the wind picks up. You start to

crack under the dry air and I just

stand there and laugh.

Rain Cloud

"Rain Cloud"

There's always a cloud

over my head. I know you

see it and you don't say anything

about it. Sorry, I guess being

happy is not my thing.

Sensitive

"Sensitive"

I'm the only one who

understands my self.

I know that you like to

lie to me and tell me that

you have emotions. I

on the other hand tell you the

truth and say that I don't

even have a heart.

Fake

"Fake"

Your nails are fake. Your eyelashes

look like they're from the dumpster.

You sport muster colored hair and yet

you think you're all that.

You have a cheesy colored tan,

and you wear false jewelery.

Sorry hun, but even plastic is more

real than you.

Lovely

"Lovely"

It's so nice when you lie to my

face about you're best friend. Sorry,

but I have to come clean. I cheated on you

first with my best guy friend.

Cliche is my middle name

"Cliche is my middle name"

I'm not going to write a love poem

Nor a poem about death. I'm not going

to be the best or the worst. I'm just going

to be me 'cause cliche is my middle name.

Sticks and Nails

"Sticks and Nails"

I fight like fire and burn like ice.

I feel as though your weak words try to hurt

me but yet you're unsuccessful. I guess my

words hurt you more 'cause when I give you

the death glare, you shudder at it.

Secrets

"Secrets"

I hold way to may secrets to

be told to the face that I hate the most.

Yeah, shatter like glass and get cuts all over myself

as I try to step over the glass.

Nosebleeds

Nose Bleeds....
You know what's really embarrassing? Having a nose bleed in Giant. Yeah, the food store. You having to run down an aisle to the public restrooms to clean your face that's covered in blood and looks like someone had just punched you right in the face. Yeah, that was me on Sunday, March 14th,2010. The worst thing about it is that I was running (More like shuffling) down the aisle with my brother behind me, pushing me as I'm running going "Hold your head up!" and me saying "I'm trying!" while laughing at the situation. I ended having blood on my lips, chin and teeth. It all happened really fast too. One minute I was with my parents and my grandpa, and then I decided to wipe my nose with the side of my thumb. I thought that I was dripping snot 'cause I have allergies, but no it just had to be blood. I swear I think I might of damaged some peoples minds with the looks I got. It even went so far as to when I got to the bathroom an old Asian lady asked me "Are you okay?" Man, I have to say this has to be one of the most embarrassing and yet ridiculously funny things that has ever happened to me.

Dark Rain

"Dark Rain"

In the dark I find myself living

in the hollow of a tree where the

cold rain of you sarcasm can't find

me. You're using the rain as a way

to back stab me but I decided to turn

the rain against you and use it for my

own good. So how does it feel now that

your greatest defense is against you.

Life

"Life"

(Inspired by Flyleaf's Uncle Bobby and Bitter Sweet)

If we could all just rewind and re-try to

fix all of our problems that we try to hide and

shove down our throats like the savage beast we are.

We can't count the times that we have done something

wrong that would've been punishable by death. We breath

in deception and scream out sorrow. It's so sad when we say

goodbye when it really means "I hope I get another day."

So think for a moment as I tell you that Being ripped apart

piece by piece is just part of high school.

The Truth in Cliches

"The Truth in Cliches"

(Inspired by Escape the Fate's Not Good Enough for Truth in Cliches)

You're just as warm as a wolf but you don't notice.

We're too good for this and my blood

runs cold and turns blue in my veins and

it's cold. I'm hypothermic and it's getting hard

to breath. You say I'm as cold as a vampire and

I say that revenge is a dish best served cold.

I love to play with your heart. I know you hate when

I gamble with your feelings but I always win when

I play black jack and pretend that your heart's

a casino. You say that me being Emo is a cliche and

I respond by saying that being a Prep is a bigger cliche than

both of us. You finally crack and fall down and all I have to

say to your hostility is that there is truth in cliches.

Drowning

"Drowning"

I cannot forget the person I used to be when

everyone was against me. Now, I stand before my old self

and I try to drown you who was part of my not-so-perfect past.

I burn away everything that reminds me of you but all

I have left to do is to drown in sorrow for everything that

we were before we decided to die in the lake of shame.

Remember us the Dead

"Remember us the Dead"

The dead are walking through

us, living, breathing and whispering

words in our heads until we go mad with hysteria.

Now, we look into mirrors, bodies litter the dance

floor and it's just you and me. Our ghost stuck forever

to be here, to re-live out our horrid life and to re-think

who we were when we left this place. "Life is a stage and

we are the actors." That's what Shakespeare said. So now

we're left to remember us the dead. Living, Breathing, Dead people.

Home

"Home"

It's not safe here for me

in this place where I took

my last breath. I stopped breathing

after I left my body on the floor, I saw

myself lying there, on the hospital bed where

I looked so small and fragile. Now, as you cremate

my body, I know that I can go home to where I belong.

Black Swing Set

Part of the story I'm writing!

"Black Swing Set"

I sat on the swing today.

I remembered back to when

We were young and naive,

Now I just sit here, the swing

Next to me is where you used

To be before you went off to

Fight for what you thought

Was right. Now, I just sit here

Alone for ever to be like that.
I've lost my will to live as I

See your body on the swing

Next to mine, like a flash back of

When we were young. But I

Know that it's just a figment of my

Imagination that you're here and

I'm next to you. I feel as if you're

Still holding my hand and my body

Up as I fall off the swing and on to

The cold ground where I ball up

And cry. I cry until I can't think anymore

And you're still there the figment that

Still wishes that you were still alive,

But it's just me and you're just in my head.

Silent Heart

"Silent Heart"

I sit in class while you look

Me right in the eye. You never look

Away from and every thing seems in slow-mo

As you start to talk to me. My mind wanders to a different place

To my world where me and you are a couple. Yet I laugh on the inside

'Cause I know that will never happen. I still dream as you turn back around

My heart beats silently as I see that you're trying to tell me something important.

"Hey, are you there?" You ask me as you wave a hand in front of my face. Capturing my

Attention.

"Yeah?" I asked as I hope that you're about to ask me out.

"Can I borrow this?" You ask as you take my pencil.

I know I have Your back, but do you have mine?

"I know I have Your back, but do you have mine?"

"Oh don't worry if you ever get into a fight I got

Your back." I said as we pinkie swear on it. Little

Did I know that you would go behind my back and

Double-cross me. Thanks a lot now this means

It's war time and I'm going to win the war 'cause

I play dirty when they cross me and pretend

That they are some thing when they are not.

So watch your back chick, 'cause I've got a double agent

After you and you never know, it might be one of your friends.

Oops.

Last Days

"Last Days"

It's my last day here as I think

Of you lying here next to my wasted

Body. This hospital bed is lumpy and I

Miss you a lot Cameron. I wish I could've

Done something to save you from yourself.

Now I'm wishing that you were here and we

Were back in the flower field where we first met.

That's the place I want to be in right now.

As her body sunk into the bed, her heart monitor

Going to a flat line.

Fragments And Broken Bones

"Fragments And Broken Bones"

I brace for impact as my emotions

Hit the wall. My heart shatters into

A million pieces as you walk by me not

Even noticing me or saying something.

Yet we brushed shoulders and I felt a spark.

Many hearts break and repair but mine's a black hole.

So be quick and tell me you notice me 'cause you're always

In the back of my mind.

Lost

Part of the story I'm writting!

"Lost"

I feel lost today, on the

Floor. I'm curled up into

A ball and can't think. My mind

Is too cloudy to see every thing

Since you left me here alone. I still

Pretend that you're still here only if its

In my mind. My tears wished that you were

Still here, holding my hand through this.

I know that it will never be true 'cause

Everything I had up to this point was

Too good to be true.

Pinkie Promise

Part of my story!

"Pinkie Promise"

"Promise me you'll never

Be anyone else but you.

Say that you'll never leave me

Alone and sad 'cause it would be

A real tragity if you do. Say that

You'll be there even in my dreams

When I can't sleep and are thinking of

You through the moon-lit sky. Pinkie

Promise me that." You said as you walked

Right through the gates and into your doom.

That's the day I forgot myself in everything.

So Close

Part Of The Story I'm Writting!

"So Close"

We're so close yet the places

That seperate us keeps us there

Even if we want to escape.

Rileigh thought to herself as

She watched Cameron leave her

Castle, not knowing that would

Be the last time she would ever see

Him again. Her heart breaks everytime

He leaves her kingdom. She feels that the

Only way that they can be together is to hide

Their love from the world. Though this

Would be the last time she'll

See his heart beat the same way her's beat.

Lockheed F-117 Nighthawk Jet Fighter Plane

"Lockheed F-117 Nighthawk Jet Fighter Plane"

My heart takes off every time

You walk by. I'm suprise you

Can't hear it take off 'cause

It's like a jet fighter plane

Taking off every day and

Every night that my heart

My tiny little heart beats for

Yours. And it's like a Lockheed

F-117 Nighthawk trying to win

The war against other hearts hoping

I'll be the best in the end. I hope

Your heart beats the same way

'Cause it almost took off to another

Planet when I thought about you.

Some Days

"Some Days"

Some days when you're

All alone, it feels like
You're the only human

In the whole world. You

Text your best friend hoping

To start a conversation

With them but they never

Answer. You feel like

You're being ignored, your

Whole world crashing down on

You because no one cares

About you, or so you think.

You try to start a conversation

With anyone who will listen

But no one pays any attention.

You become bored and feel depressed

For a bit, cause you're the only

One in your little desolate planet.

And sometimes it can last for days.

Mila and Damien

Part of a story that I'm writting!

"Mila and Damien"

She shared the crown

With her younger sister.

She was the one who was

Quiet and shy yet can bite

Your head off at any second

If you decided to anger her.

Her shared crown belonged to

The tragic kingdom of emos.

The man she fell in love with from

The time she was young was the

King of the tragic kingdom

Of preps. They were both

Childhood friends who parted ways

Join in what they believed was right.

Later being crowned king and queen

But of different kingdoms.

He was an only child who fell in love

With the only girl who wanted to be

Friends with him since he was a child.

He felt though, he had to hid his feelings

And not seem week. Although, they

Never knew that they felt the same

Towards each other. They always looked

At the same moon when ever

They thought of eachother.

"I wish you were here." They often said to eachother

Stary-eyed as they sighed deeply almost as

If to wish they're was a way they can be together.

Mila's blue eyes always thought of Damien's

Blue eyed curiosty as she reflected on their

Friendship. Damien always felt as if

He was running his fingers through the

Light brown long hair of Mila's, often looking at his

Short hair in the mirror, the same color as hers.

"I hope we could break down the walls that

Seperate us from eachother." They would always

Say when they were in deep thought.

"Good night my sweet love." They would whisper

As if to pretend they were next to eachother,

As they fell asleep next to no one.

Bandages and Broken Hearts

"Bandages and Broken Hearts"

I put a bandage on your

Broken heart today. Though

It must of hurt when

I punched a hole

Right through

It again. Sorry,

I guess I just

Can't Deal

With my

Broken Heart

In two

Pieces.

Spare The Tears

"Spare The Tears"

"Don't cry for me when
I ditch you here on earth.

You know I'll be always

Watching, though you may

Not know it. I'll aways

Hug you, if you can't feel

My warm embrace on your

Ice cold body. I'll always kiss

You goodnight, though you can't

Taste it. I'll always whisper

Your name in the wind though

You may not hear it. I'll always

Love you even if you can't sense

It. Spare the tears for the joys of life. "

Those were the last words you said the

Night you left earth and the same night

I left my sanity on your bedside.

Japan

"Japan"

It's the place to be

If you're 4'10, if that's

What you need, then

You can fit in and feel

At home when you're in

Japan, if you know how

To read and write then it's

Totally fine, helps you live

Without crossing that fine

Line, if you love life.

Then live it like it's only for one day

Royal Blue

"Royal Blue"

I walked down the

Hall today. I felt envy

For the first time in

My life. Ha, I guess

You're too cool to be

On the same common

Ground that I am on.

I got pulled out my thoughts

By a simple "Hey"

Falling out your mouth as

You notice my bright pants that

I always wear that make

Me the person that I am.

I walk down the stairs ten

Minutes later to get pelted by

Love like the royal blue

Of a Kellogg's box that punches

You right in the face when you're

Browsing down the cereal aisle.

Fallen Angel

"Fallen Angel: The song"

V1: I despise thee, who condemn me
No one knows how I feel because
I'm not real anymore
Screamo Chorus*: I just know one thing....
I am fallen out of the sky
Now walk the earth an angel
In disquise out in the battle
Field of pain and agony
V2:I am slowly saving broken
Souls from evil, but I can't save
You anymore
(Sceamo Chorus*)
V3: I cannot erase the face I've
Hurt because *I'm still in love
With you* Have mercy
My saivor for I see what
I've done, for life has no meaning
Without your *love*

Bond Fire

"Bond Fire"

I go all crazy and burn

Our pictures we took

While we were still

Together. I lit a

Bond fire with the jewlery

You decided to give me while

We were still in love and young.

I pour gasoline all over them

And threw a mactch on it in

My back yard. I danced around

The fire and started to swear

You out in my mind. I spit

In the fire and I felt alive

For the first time since

Our flame died out and I

Smothered it down everytime

You look at me. Everytime

I danced around the fire,

I felt like I was killing a part of

You. It was piece by painful

Piece that I killed you in, I spit

In our memories and made pretend

That it was your face that was there

To feel my wrath for you. Thanks

Alot for sharing and cheating

You horrible person. It tells me

The kind of person you are.

I guess you're too chiken to stay

In a commited relationship, unlike

Me who is more mature than you

Will ever be.

Asthama

You breath in too much air and you choke on it because you concentrated too much on perfection, and when all you needed was a break you forgot to exhale and forgot you had lungs. You thought that you could hold your breath for at least a minute and end up holding it all in for a life time.

Dear Divers

"Dear Divers"

Do you dive for

The thrill

or do you live

Off the edge?

How does it feel to hit

A wall of water?

Or were you just

Pushed off the ledge?

What do you hear

When you're under water?

The gurgles, the sounds

Of the pool, is it coming alive?

Or do yo hear

My hope, my faith

Of a faded heart beat

That was once inside?

D.Qued

"D.Qued"

I hate being the one who

Got D.Qued today in swimming.

Well at least it was not my fault

This time. I know it was you

Who D.Qued me because I broke

Your stupid little heart. I love

The fact that deep down inside

You are still in love with me.

How can you place your unfair

Judgement on me? When the

Quote of the day should be

"Who am I to Judge You?"

Strand

"Strand"
I write to you
On a strand of paper.
Although, it's thin
It still carries all the
Information you need
To know about me.
Now it's snowing out
And the paper disintegrates
Along with the rest of me.

Year Book Memories

"Year Book Memories"

I flip through the year book,

Trying to see, remember and

Recognize the faces I see.

Though it's true when

They say "A picture is a

Thousand words." because

I see happyness or at least

Mine was pretend.

Then I run into your picture.

It all comes back back to

Me, that what I felt

Then, I still feel now.

Safety Pins

"Safety Pins"

Safety Pins, are they really safe?

Their sharp ends poking me, like

Needles to my heart. I fall, but I

Can't get back up. I heard you but

You're not there. It's just in my head

As I wake up from this impossible

Nightmare of a day dream, then I

Realize this is not a dream, It's real life.

The Cereal Aisle

"The Cereal Aisle"

I walked down the cereal

Aisle today. I could not choose

What Cereal I wanted because

There are so many types of cereal.

Out of all the boxes, I chose you because

I saw that even if your brand is generic,

It's still one of a kind.

Sick

"Sick"

I feel like crap today

As you called my house

In a frenzy. I wished

You would have called

At a better time because

Right now I'm really

Sick. I feel like screaming

At you and never talking

To you again after

You decided to be selfish

And break up with me.

Thanks now I can plot

My sweet revenge for you.

Heart Of Poison

"Heart Of Poison"

"I'm sorry." I say as I look into your

Eyes. They finally start to hate me

For breaking your heart in two. I thought

I felt bad for you when I saw your heart

Shatter and break into a million pieces. Then

I decided to reflect back on what we used to have.

It felt like a slap in the face when I finally saw

What I thought was real. You broke and played

Me first. But I was the one who decided to

Deal the final blow on this emotional roller coaster.

I took a crane to it and brought it down with one blow.

There, you poised your heart with deep enbeded hate

For me. Though, you know you're in the wrong to hate me.

Because it should be me who hates you. 'Cause you

Made me poison my heart first when you kissed her right in

Front of me. I know you weren't going out with me

The day you kissed her, yet that made me envy her.

Now, I feel nothing 'cause I heal faste than you.

You say I' ve gone numb, I just say I know how to deal.

You've Lost Yourself

"You've Lost Yourself"

In the chaos, the trying

Survive in this place that every

One loses in. Some people lose

The love they thought they had.

Some lose the spot they had for class rank.

In the mist of everything, You lost yourself

In the cliques and cliches of school.

You try to fit in but it never works.

You have nothing left to hold on to from

Your old life and the person you once really

Were. You turn into an android, not being able

To function properly. You fall in a line, and you

Can't leave 'cause your chained to it until graduation day.

In the Clique that now you are dependent on.

You can't survive without them.

You lost forever in that one moment you chose

To be a follower and not a leader.

Snowing Lies

"Snowing Lies"

It's been a year since

I've seen you last in

High School where

We were sweethearts

Or so you say. I know

The unspoken lie you told

Me in my face the day I

Caught you with my ex

Best friend. Thanks a lot

Now your lies are blowing all over

The place like the snowy blizzard

That happened today. The snow

Flakes are your lies and I walk

All over them stomping them

And I leave you there standing

Looking like you just lost something

But I got my integrity back

Even when I don't notice.... you do

I know you were looking at me today

With them big boulder eyes of yours

I was not watching but someone else

Was watching you. I felt your eyes

Stare a hole into my soul. I swore it was

In my head, but someone told me it was

Not so. They caught you as you followed

My every move with your glance as I was rushing

Towards the door way, your eyes did a little dance.

Don't worry I made sure I was not looking, though

A little bird told me and I caught you staring

At me as I got into the car, close the door and

Fumbled with the seat belt I despise so much.

When We Amount To Nothing

"When We Amount To Nothing"

Who are we if we don't go

For the gold we promised

The little kid on the inside?

How can we deney ourselves

Our own dreams when we give

Up on the life that we promised

To never faulter on and always

Be there for the little kid on the

Inside, we promised ourselves

Everything when we were younger,

Now we quit on ourselves, not living

The high life that we wanted and riches

Can't be compared to. People would kill

To have their dreams back that they gave

Up on. When we amount to nothing, we

Finally want everything we could've had

But gave up on and we try to get it back,
But you can't 'cause we all lose when we give up.

Super Bowl

"Super Bowl"

What is the super bowl?

Is it just a big game?

Or an epic meet?

To me, the super bowl

Is about spending time

With the ones I love and care

About, although I don't know

Who is playing right now,

I think that it's important

To spend time with family

Even if it's just once a year

Roses

"Roses"

Roses are the expression of love

There are many different types of roses

Just like there are many different types of love

Like the red rose that represents love

Though the only rose I want is
The black rose that is different

I want to be different from everyone else

Yet everyone tries to kill the black rose

The black rose that I cherish so much

They try to get rid of, try to say it's wrong

To be the black rose in the bunch

But I don't care, 'cause the black rose

Is the true me on the inside

Am I Dreaming

"Am I Dreaming?"

I thought that I heard you down the hall

I wanted to say "Hi" but you weren't there

I thought I started hearing the whispers

In the wind this morning as I walked

Into school, having eyes staring me down.

I know I did something when you walked up

To me and greeted me with a rose

I must be dreaming, 'cause this is not true

I think as you say "Happy valentine's day"

I think my outer wall just came down

Black, White Or Silver

Black,White Or Silver

We all at one point read the same novels

Some people say that reading is just words

That there's noting fun about reading

People like that can't see through the black and white

Of the pages that the words are written on

Unlike them, there is a few that can see past that

And see the silver or the imagination the author

Had in mind for the story to soar

Like lyrics to a song, words on a page can tell

Us a lot about their personalities

I just wish that people would see past the

Black and White, 'cause it's never two colors

Way Too Selfish

“Way Too Selfish”
I am way to selfish to have your love
But yet you give it to me like if it was water
I live for your love and die when you give it
To some one else who is less deserving
I’m sorry I am so selfish, living on the edge
But you let me be dependent on it

If it's the only thing keeping us alive

Our Mutual Relationship can't survive

Cherry Blossom Tree

Cherry Blossom Tree

You stand under the Cherry Blossom Tree

Waiting for the future to come

Are you blind to the rumors? They whisper in the wind

The butterflies carry the secret with them

The secret of life that flies and bees seem to understand

The secret of life that makes us so fragile

The secret that the spiders speak to me in a language

That you can't understand, the secret to life

Is in the trunk of the Cherry Blossom Tree

You still stand there like a statue

To this day trying to find the secret to life

I Think It's Me Not You....No It's You, For Reals

"That's crap" I say as I see walking into class. Your bronze skin glistens when the sun hits it. It sparkles, but not like a vampire, more like it was all your doing. You look at me with curious eyes as my jaw drops, I think I was looking pretty foolish to you by now, yet you never looked away for a second. You studied my features as I try, but can't look away. You have a certain ambiance about you, that captivated me last year. Now that I see you in the hallways, you still radiate more than my highliter pink pants, that I was told could be the second sun. So be glad that you still shine, even if it's just to me.

Sunday.....It's Aigh't

Today, I had to go to church for the nth time. I mean it's alright, I'm not saying I hate going to church but I don't particularly like it either. Though, if you are made to go every Sunday for the past 4 years or so, then yeah you kind of get tired of it after I would say the first year. Yet, I feel sorta empty if I don't go to church. I got so used to it, that it bothers me to not go, and sometimes I don't want to go because I went to bed really late. I don't know any more, I guess I just have to roll with it until I move out or something. Today was an okay day, I went to church, and now I'm at home hanging out with my family. Laundry is do today, like every Sunday, since I've been going to church. I mean yeah, I don't have a life on Sundays, but it's okay because tomorrow I have a whole new day to hang out with friends and stuff. I have swimming tomorrow which is kinda of a hindrance in my opinion, but hey people live for that sport, I'm just not one of those people. I'm just waiting for the season to be over, so then I can do another league and not have it be a bother to me. I have to finish what I've started. I think swimming has hurt me more than help me. It's kinda like a parasitism in my opinion. It's when one person is hurt while the other benifits, though in this case no one benifits. I have to be true to my self and go on record as in saying that swimming for highschool has kinda got me on the fringes lately and it makes it hard to have time with friends, and I need to have friend time sometimes to for me to even have some breathing air. I also need free time to write.
P.S Now I'm watching The 52nd Annual Grammy Awards where they are going to give a special tribute in 3-D to M.J, God bless his soul.

Sorry, I slept through the movie....again

Last night I was watching Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince and I never got to see the ending of it. My mom said that it was a good ending, but I totally missed it because I fell asleep on the couch trying to watch it. The worst thing is that while I was trying to watch it I kept nodding off into sleep. I was so looking forward to watching it but I am so mad that I fell asleep trying. Then, I end up waking up at 12:30 in the morning asking my mom when did they finished watching the movie. She said that it had finished while I was sleeping on the couch. She said after that, she asked me if I wanted to go to bed and I apparently said that "I want to stay up." but then I fell back asleep. I woke up like I would say 20 minutes later and asked my mom what is she waiting for. I then said according to her that I wanted to go to sleep and then that's when I asked her what is she waiting for. She then proceeded to ask me the same question, mind you that I was still half asleep asking her these questions. I think I told her "I'm waiting for you." and then I went to bed 'cause I was dead tired. Oh well, I guess I have to see that movie another time.

Finally It's Friday

Tonight might be the wrap up to the worst week I've had in history of worst weeks. So I am done with this week and I can't wait to start next week with a clean slate and new chance to mess up and stuff. I am so happy that this week is over because I could not take it anymore. It has been like an annoying Nat that lingers for a while until you swat it with a fly swatter and then it goes away but decides to come back. Yeah, that's what this week has been about. I hope I never have to repeat another week like this one again.I had to take 2 test today and swim, so I feel very tired. One was in scinece, which I hope can bring my grade up. The other one was in Japanese, which was really hard. Then, I finally started my volunteer job at the libary. It's fun there plus it gets me out of study hall for the rest of the year, which makes me very very happy. I hope that my weekend is very eventufl. In all good spirits, I wish everyone the best for their weekends.

Saiyonara,

N.B

Worst Day Ever....I Don't Even Know How I Survived It

First, I'm going to start off by saying that walking in shoes that have a small heel and offer no protection or warmth for your feet are really bad to walk in when it's freezing outside and it's snowing on top of it all. Then, my bus was late to school, I felt embarrassed because I thought I was the only one who was late to class. I find out later, that a lot of buses were late, so that helped with my anxiety. After, that stupid bomb threat was horrible. It was also the worst weather to do that in. So that made CW2 to be really short. I was mad at first about it, but then it ended up being fun. After, I had to go with the swim team to an away meet. The girls lost, but the boys won. My parents were there to watch the meet. When the meet was done, I decided to go home with my mom. We ended up getting lost for about 20 or so minutes. I felt really scared because, we were on roads going through heavy wooded areas. (I knew that my mom made a wrong turn, but I held my peace.) Then, we found our way back home. After I picked up my stuff from school, I had to go to church in which I ended up doing my homework. After about an hour there, my parents decide to go and get pizza for dinner. I hope tomorrow is better than today. I also came up with a quote while I was on the bus on my way to the meet. "I can't cut the binds that connect my past with my future. If I do, then I mess up the present."

Later,

N.B

Nightmare because of stress....Ugh

Today, after I set my alarm for 5:45 so I can wake up from my nap, I had a nightmare. It felt so real, and it scared me so much that I ended up talking about it during swim practice. What happened in the dream was that apparently, my parents could not pay the mortgage any longer on the house and we got evicted. Then, I had to move to an apartment, where my parents were arguing a lot. So I ended up having to move out to find an apartment by myself. After, my alarm went off and I woke up. I swear that my heart rate went up a lot. I don't know what that means but I really don't want to know. So then I decided to reset my alarm to 5:55. I felt so scared but now I feel much better that I was able to talk about it or at least blog about it. Gosh, I have a meet tomorrow for swimming and it is away....so that means that I have to leave class early. Boooo!!!!!

Peace out,

N.B

Quote of the Day

When things suck really really horribly, I always think of what my mom gave to me as advice one day coming home from swim pratice. She said "What's sour today, will be sweet tomorrow." I felt like relating that quote today, because when I was in that group thing that we had to do for CW2, one of the questions was "What's the best advice you have ever recieved?" I thought of this quote, because it is so true in my life right now. Remember how in my last blog I said that I was a chronic stressed person? Well this quote reminds me of my constant stressing and anxiety. I will be honest as to saying that I hate being stressed. Being stressed is horrible, because I swear I feel like I am about to fall asleep any second while I am at school. My brother picks on my so much but he can also be nice at times , that my mom said that "It's like having a sour patch kid for a brother." Side note: I feel like that girl Julie from Julie and Julia every time I blog, although without the cooking part, because I can't cook to save my life.

Dude, what happened to me?

Today, I woke up to Ke$ha's "Tik Tok" as my alarm on my phone. I felt like crud though, because I went to sleep at like 11:30 at night, and then woke up at 4 a.m as usual. My mom decided to take me to the bus stop because it was raining like a monster was crying its head off because its girlfriend broke up with him. So when we get to the bus stop we were waiting for the bus to come so it can come and pick us up at 6:52 in the morning. So when the bus comes, my mom forgot that she had locked the car from the inside and the alarm of the car went off in the dead silence. (Of course I knew this was going to happen, but I said nothing.) So it was pretty horrible,but in a funny way that happend. After my bus gets to school, I have a dumb assembly during my math class, which I was pretty happy about. After the assembly, I got stuck in my math class, being that is my first class of the day. I was so bored until the bell rang for second period, which ofcourse I dread the most because it is health class, a.k.a the class where I basically have no friends in but I atleast know 1 person. In health, I finally was able to recognize that I am a chronic stressed person and I hate being stressed but I don't know how to deal with it. I guess I would just have to learn to live with it. I felt like totally skipping swimming and going home because I was so tired, I felt that if I was going to swim pratice I was going to fall asleep and cause myself to die from accidental drowning. That would be ironic though, seeing as I am a swimmer for the school. I still went, because if I skip one I would have to make it up on Saturday and that just ain't gonna happen. But, while I was there I did come up with a quote. "I glued my heart back together with the monster glue that I call my honesty." Now I am totally chill and ready for tommorow's problems.
Peace Out,
N.B