Behind Enemy Lines

"Behind Enemy Lines"

We have guns pointed at

Each other

Locked and loaded

We fire

Fall back into

Reality

Let Me Live....Damn It!

"Let Me Live....Damn It!"
All that stupid conformity and for what? You tell me my dear. Or should I say the chicks who walk around the halls thinking that they're all that and shit and really they just end up being that first batch of cookies. Dude, I'm over trying to be the popular one in the room or the attention whore in the hallways. No thanks, I've learn to see life from a new perspective. I'm always told that being popular is stupid and not a big deal. Then why glorify it if it's supposedly not a "BIG DEAL????" I mean we're influenced by the media to wear tight clothing and have so much make up on that you end up looking like a cake face. Yeah, who wants to look like a drag queen? But believe me there is some people that go to that extent. So why in the hell do we need the media and peer pressure influence us so much? I know, because we're insecure about ourselves. And we worry so much about our outer appearance that we're not looking from the inside out. Then you get people who try to live out others people's lives in hopes of becoming famous or some shit like that. I'm sorry that I have to be the one to break the news to you but, that's not going to get you anywhere. So now I'm just asking have you ever tried to live your life the way you want to live it or do you just go around and live other people's lives?

Video Vixens

"Video Vixens"

Okay, we all have seen them. You know the girls who dance around in videos with their junk hanging out and they think that's "Sexy". Well, I beg to differ. It's so gross to see some chick in the camera's face shaking all they got to the rest of the freaking world. I ask you where has self-respect gone? Then, the next thing you know, guys end up like Tiger Woods and other celebrities with these girls who have no self respect and think that the easiest way to make money is through selling themselves. After, you end up like Shayna's monologue, you know with a stupid sex video and your face plastered all over the news and your sick, disgusting video all over the web. You know that kind of crap doesn't go away that easily. Everyone's all over that shit the minute they get a taste of it. Then, the next thing anyone knows is that now you have to make a public apology to all of the people who saw this said video and all the young minds you end up scaring. Then say about 2 to 3 years later the whole thing blows over and you end up being a faceless slut who saw her 15 minutes of fame flash by. So I ask you, is your self respect worth the 15 minutes of fame or the 2 to 3 years of torture?

No Duh

"No Duh"

Okay so now you think I'm

easy to play

Well, think again

How To Make A Frien-emy

"How To Make A Frien-emy"

1/2 a tea spoon of bitch

a dash of kindness

a pound of back stab

3/4 cup of whore

2 cups of fake everything

5 cups of tanning oil

2 bowls full of tight clothing

Stir, Mix, Blend and bake at 360 degrees slut

Enjoy.

What Up

"What Up"

The sky,

the celing,

the roof.

You when I roundhouse kick you.

East Jesus Nowhere

"East Jesus Nowhere"
Today started like any other Saturday. (Although, my last Saturday was anything but.) Anyway, I get up at like 9 am and I'm just like "Why am I up this early to begin with any way?" Then, I remember that I went to bed mad early. I really don't know why but I guess I'm just totally done with everything and just want school to be over already so I can start on my vacation. I mean yeah school is just a waste of time and it's so boring and stuff and all you do is re-learn everything that you've be learning since like kindergarten. Well, back to the story. So then I remember that today, my g-ma was having a house warming party to celebrate the occasion that she has bought a house with my g-pa. (Yes, I see my grandparents as Gangstas)
It was so cold outside that I swear I almost died, but that's besides the point. I'm at my grandparents house and I see people from the hood that I've never met before come to the house and I'm like "Who are these people?" To make a long story short 'cause I've made it this monologue long enough, I've made two new friends here in east Jesus nowhere.

Sinister

"Sinister"

I've started a fire

You're in the middle of it

Melting.

You scream and I don't

care 'cause you deserve

it.

Sorry

"Sorry"

I'm not going to be

this little potrait that you

want me to be.

No thanks I rather live

my way.

Baby Powder

"Baby Powder"

It hits you in the face.

No warning signs.

It's me the girl who died for you.

You're So....

"You're So...."

I'm so what????

Tell me, I'd like to know.

So you want to be just like me, huh?

Well what you need is a good butt kicking.

But that's just my opinion.

Published

"Published"

Since I'm published now, it gives me the right to be mean.

But I won't 'cause I'll just be honest for a moment or two.

The night I show up to the induction ceremony you weren't there.

What happened??

Snooze Fest

"Snooze Fest"

You ask a lot of questions.

Is it to annoy me or is it something else?

Are you trying to be smart or trying to be friends?
But all you do is bore me, so come up with something interesting for once.

Zenon

"Zenon"

Ha ha, you think I'll fall for your lies.

No, I don't think so.

We're two diffrent elements.

And you just don't get it.

Tear Away

"Tear Away"

I hold your letter in my hand.

You walk away as if you act like nothing ever happened.

Yeah, screw you too.

Bottled Up

"Bottled Up"

I'm a ticking time bomb ready to explode.

My rage is like dynamite going off.

You're in my line of fire and you start ranting about something so pointless.

"Shut Up! Just shut your mouth and stop talking!"

I yell at you while hurting myself in the process.

Shock

"Shock"

So you let the shock settle.

Yeah, you're reading this post and thinking to yourself:

"Who is this?". I know I've been lying to you.

I Play So Dirty I Make A Football Player Look Clean

"I Play So Dirty I Make A Football Player Look Clean"

I may look clean and proper on the outside of things

Though my heart beats like the snarl of an angry dragon

Breathing fire as I play you like a record being scratched

I use you for my own game

You....not knowing and yet so willing

Yep, that's me

The girl who plays so dirty I make a football player look clean

So I'm Just Going To Have To Be Honest

"So I'm Just Going To Have To Be Honest"

We're standing in the middle of the hallway after school.

You're pouring out your feelings in the most cheesy way.

And I'm just looking at you like What's up with you now???

Then you ask me what do I think.

I say: "I have to be honest with you and tell you that I was not paying attention."

You brush it off like it's no biggie and I shrug my shoulders and walk away.

Looking Up From When I'm Down

"Looking Up From When I'm Down"

How can I write this letter to you when my fingers just fly?

Yeah, I e-mail you and nothing. I wait for your call and nothing.

I guess you don't want anything to do with me.

That's okay 'cause for all the guys I'm writting to.

You know, the ones who like to play with my feelings.

Guess what, I'm looking down on you guys now.

Yup It's Him

"Yup It's Him"

You ask me what makes me so depressed.

Why the only thing I talk about is him.

He's the only thing that keeps me going even if I don't want to.

The Break Up

"The Break Up"

Are we like a bad thing, you and I?

I feel like when people ask us if we're going out, you're in denial.

I can't belive that you would try to hide us for your rep.

I guess this is the last time. I am writting to you to tell you that this is our break up.

Tell Me

If anyone wants to add that's totally cool, so far this is all I got...

V1: I want you to tell me that every thing is alright. (*)= Screaming
And all of their screaming is just in my head.
Please say it over and over and over again....
Chorus: 'Cause I can't take it. I don't like being burned at the stake.
Everything I say is the truth in my world but the just shut me out.
*They Can't handle it! They can't belive it! Their world falls apart at the seams*

What it's like to be me....

"What it's like to be me"

This is me:

Shorts, pants, shirts and sneakers.

Sometimes though, I will wear a dress.

Sorry that the person you wish I was is not me.

'Cause I love me the Japanese Culture.

Honors

"Honors"

I'm out for this, trying to own the world.

You basically lie to me every day and I take it with no regrets.

I at least have an Honors code that I follow by.

Unlike you who has nothing to anything.

The Anti-Me

"The Anti-Me"

I am not the person you think I am.

Sorry, but I don't feel like being the anti me today.

It's just me.

Pink and Blue

"Pink and Blue"

The color of my nails are the colors of my clothes.

I try to match everything with my nails.

Sorry if you don't like it but you're not me.

Who I Really Am....

"Who I Really Am...."

I want to be a Kabuki dancer.

Or maybe be a Japanese school girl.

Even be a Geisha.

All I know is what ever I choose to be,

I'll still be me.

To The Hat8rs

"To The Hat8rs"

You guys love to hate me.

I love to see you try to mess me up.

Sorry, but I always win in the end.

Stand Alone

"Stand Alone"

One is a lonely number.

I'm the only person who knows how it feels to be like that.
Yeah, I know what you're thinking. That I must not

know what I'm talking about half the time. No, I'm

not stupid, I just know how it feels to be you.

Waking Up in Wonderland

"Waking Up in Wonderland"

I hit the snooze button on my alarm again.

This time though, I felt like I was in my own nightmare.

'Cause there was people dancing on roofs and I was there all alone.

I saw you there, but there was something wrong with your eyes.

I think you were blind. I called your name out but you never saw me.

So now I guess that you can't see what hits you between the eyes.