So Close

Part Of The Story I'm Writting!

"So Close"

We're so close yet the places

That seperate us keeps us there

Even if we want to escape.

Rileigh thought to herself as

She watched Cameron leave her

Castle, not knowing that would

Be the last time she would ever see

Him again. Her heart breaks everytime

He leaves her kingdom. She feels that the

Only way that they can be together is to hide

Their love from the world. Though this

Would be the last time she'll

See his heart beat the same way her's beat.

Lockheed F-117 Nighthawk Jet Fighter Plane

"Lockheed F-117 Nighthawk Jet Fighter Plane"

My heart takes off every time

You walk by. I'm suprise you

Can't hear it take off 'cause

It's like a jet fighter plane

Taking off every day and

Every night that my heart

My tiny little heart beats for

Yours. And it's like a Lockheed

F-117 Nighthawk trying to win

The war against other hearts hoping

I'll be the best in the end. I hope

Your heart beats the same way

'Cause it almost took off to another

Planet when I thought about you.

Some Days

"Some Days"

Some days when you're

All alone, it feels like
You're the only human

In the whole world. You

Text your best friend hoping

To start a conversation

With them but they never

Answer. You feel like

You're being ignored, your

Whole world crashing down on

You because no one cares

About you, or so you think.

You try to start a conversation

With anyone who will listen

But no one pays any attention.

You become bored and feel depressed

For a bit, cause you're the only

One in your little desolate planet.

And sometimes it can last for days.

Mila and Damien

Part of a story that I'm writting!

"Mila and Damien"

She shared the crown

With her younger sister.

She was the one who was

Quiet and shy yet can bite

Your head off at any second

If you decided to anger her.

Her shared crown belonged to

The tragic kingdom of emos.

The man she fell in love with from

The time she was young was the

King of the tragic kingdom

Of preps. They were both

Childhood friends who parted ways

Join in what they believed was right.

Later being crowned king and queen

But of different kingdoms.

He was an only child who fell in love

With the only girl who wanted to be

Friends with him since he was a child.

He felt though, he had to hid his feelings

And not seem week. Although, they

Never knew that they felt the same

Towards each other. They always looked

At the same moon when ever

They thought of eachother.

"I wish you were here." They often said to eachother

Stary-eyed as they sighed deeply almost as

If to wish they're was a way they can be together.

Mila's blue eyes always thought of Damien's

Blue eyed curiosty as she reflected on their

Friendship. Damien always felt as if

He was running his fingers through the

Light brown long hair of Mila's, often looking at his

Short hair in the mirror, the same color as hers.

"I hope we could break down the walls that

Seperate us from eachother." They would always

Say when they were in deep thought.

"Good night my sweet love." They would whisper

As if to pretend they were next to eachother,

As they fell asleep next to no one.

Bandages and Broken Hearts

"Bandages and Broken Hearts"

I put a bandage on your

Broken heart today. Though

It must of hurt when

I punched a hole

Right through

It again. Sorry,

I guess I just

Can't Deal

With my

Broken Heart

In two

Pieces.

Spare The Tears

"Spare The Tears"

"Don't cry for me when
I ditch you here on earth.

You know I'll be always

Watching, though you may

Not know it. I'll aways

Hug you, if you can't feel

My warm embrace on your

Ice cold body. I'll always kiss

You goodnight, though you can't

Taste it. I'll always whisper

Your name in the wind though

You may not hear it. I'll always

Love you even if you can't sense

It. Spare the tears for the joys of life. "

Those were the last words you said the

Night you left earth and the same night

I left my sanity on your bedside.

Japan

"Japan"

It's the place to be

If you're 4'10, if that's

What you need, then

You can fit in and feel

At home when you're in

Japan, if you know how

To read and write then it's

Totally fine, helps you live

Without crossing that fine

Line, if you love life.

Then live it like it's only for one day

Royal Blue

"Royal Blue"

I walked down the

Hall today. I felt envy

For the first time in

My life. Ha, I guess

You're too cool to be

On the same common

Ground that I am on.

I got pulled out my thoughts

By a simple "Hey"

Falling out your mouth as

You notice my bright pants that

I always wear that make

Me the person that I am.

I walk down the stairs ten

Minutes later to get pelted by

Love like the royal blue

Of a Kellogg's box that punches

You right in the face when you're

Browsing down the cereal aisle.

Fallen Angel

"Fallen Angel: The song"

V1: I despise thee, who condemn me
No one knows how I feel because
I'm not real anymore
Screamo Chorus*: I just know one thing....
I am fallen out of the sky
Now walk the earth an angel
In disquise out in the battle
Field of pain and agony
V2:I am slowly saving broken
Souls from evil, but I can't save
You anymore
(Sceamo Chorus*)
V3: I cannot erase the face I've
Hurt because *I'm still in love
With you* Have mercy
My saivor for I see what
I've done, for life has no meaning
Without your *love*

Bond Fire

"Bond Fire"

I go all crazy and burn

Our pictures we took

While we were still

Together. I lit a

Bond fire with the jewlery

You decided to give me while

We were still in love and young.

I pour gasoline all over them

And threw a mactch on it in

My back yard. I danced around

The fire and started to swear

You out in my mind. I spit

In the fire and I felt alive

For the first time since

Our flame died out and I

Smothered it down everytime

You look at me. Everytime

I danced around the fire,

I felt like I was killing a part of

You. It was piece by painful

Piece that I killed you in, I spit

In our memories and made pretend

That it was your face that was there

To feel my wrath for you. Thanks

Alot for sharing and cheating

You horrible person. It tells me

The kind of person you are.

I guess you're too chiken to stay

In a commited relationship, unlike

Me who is more mature than you

Will ever be.

Asthama

You breath in too much air and you choke on it because you concentrated too much on perfection, and when all you needed was a break you forgot to exhale and forgot you had lungs. You thought that you could hold your breath for at least a minute and end up holding it all in for a life time.

Dear Divers

"Dear Divers"

Do you dive for

The thrill

or do you live

Off the edge?

How does it feel to hit

A wall of water?

Or were you just

Pushed off the ledge?

What do you hear

When you're under water?

The gurgles, the sounds

Of the pool, is it coming alive?

Or do yo hear

My hope, my faith

Of a faded heart beat

That was once inside?

D.Qued

"D.Qued"

I hate being the one who

Got D.Qued today in swimming.

Well at least it was not my fault

This time. I know it was you

Who D.Qued me because I broke

Your stupid little heart. I love

The fact that deep down inside

You are still in love with me.

How can you place your unfair

Judgement on me? When the

Quote of the day should be

"Who am I to Judge You?"

Strand

"Strand"
I write to you
On a strand of paper.
Although, it's thin
It still carries all the
Information you need
To know about me.
Now it's snowing out
And the paper disintegrates
Along with the rest of me.

Year Book Memories

"Year Book Memories"

I flip through the year book,

Trying to see, remember and

Recognize the faces I see.

Though it's true when

They say "A picture is a

Thousand words." because

I see happyness or at least

Mine was pretend.

Then I run into your picture.

It all comes back back to

Me, that what I felt

Then, I still feel now.

Safety Pins

"Safety Pins"

Safety Pins, are they really safe?

Their sharp ends poking me, like

Needles to my heart. I fall, but I

Can't get back up. I heard you but

You're not there. It's just in my head

As I wake up from this impossible

Nightmare of a day dream, then I

Realize this is not a dream, It's real life.

The Cereal Aisle

"The Cereal Aisle"

I walked down the cereal

Aisle today. I could not choose

What Cereal I wanted because

There are so many types of cereal.

Out of all the boxes, I chose you because

I saw that even if your brand is generic,

It's still one of a kind.

Sick

"Sick"

I feel like crap today

As you called my house

In a frenzy. I wished

You would have called

At a better time because

Right now I'm really

Sick. I feel like screaming

At you and never talking

To you again after

You decided to be selfish

And break up with me.

Thanks now I can plot

My sweet revenge for you.

Heart Of Poison

"Heart Of Poison"

"I'm sorry." I say as I look into your

Eyes. They finally start to hate me

For breaking your heart in two. I thought

I felt bad for you when I saw your heart

Shatter and break into a million pieces. Then

I decided to reflect back on what we used to have.

It felt like a slap in the face when I finally saw

What I thought was real. You broke and played

Me first. But I was the one who decided to

Deal the final blow on this emotional roller coaster.

I took a crane to it and brought it down with one blow.

There, you poised your heart with deep enbeded hate

For me. Though, you know you're in the wrong to hate me.

Because it should be me who hates you. 'Cause you

Made me poison my heart first when you kissed her right in

Front of me. I know you weren't going out with me

The day you kissed her, yet that made me envy her.

Now, I feel nothing 'cause I heal faste than you.

You say I' ve gone numb, I just say I know how to deal.

You've Lost Yourself

"You've Lost Yourself"

In the chaos, the trying

Survive in this place that every

One loses in. Some people lose

The love they thought they had.

Some lose the spot they had for class rank.

In the mist of everything, You lost yourself

In the cliques and cliches of school.

You try to fit in but it never works.

You have nothing left to hold on to from

Your old life and the person you once really

Were. You turn into an android, not being able

To function properly. You fall in a line, and you

Can't leave 'cause your chained to it until graduation day.

In the Clique that now you are dependent on.

You can't survive without them.

You lost forever in that one moment you chose

To be a follower and not a leader.

Snowing Lies

"Snowing Lies"

It's been a year since

I've seen you last in

High School where

We were sweethearts

Or so you say. I know

The unspoken lie you told

Me in my face the day I

Caught you with my ex

Best friend. Thanks a lot

Now your lies are blowing all over

The place like the snowy blizzard

That happened today. The snow

Flakes are your lies and I walk

All over them stomping them

And I leave you there standing

Looking like you just lost something

But I got my integrity back

Even when I don't notice.... you do

I know you were looking at me today

With them big boulder eyes of yours

I was not watching but someone else

Was watching you. I felt your eyes

Stare a hole into my soul. I swore it was

In my head, but someone told me it was

Not so. They caught you as you followed

My every move with your glance as I was rushing

Towards the door way, your eyes did a little dance.

Don't worry I made sure I was not looking, though

A little bird told me and I caught you staring

At me as I got into the car, close the door and

Fumbled with the seat belt I despise so much.

When We Amount To Nothing

"When We Amount To Nothing"

Who are we if we don't go

For the gold we promised

The little kid on the inside?

How can we deney ourselves

Our own dreams when we give

Up on the life that we promised

To never faulter on and always

Be there for the little kid on the

Inside, we promised ourselves

Everything when we were younger,

Now we quit on ourselves, not living

The high life that we wanted and riches

Can't be compared to. People would kill

To have their dreams back that they gave

Up on. When we amount to nothing, we

Finally want everything we could've had

But gave up on and we try to get it back,
But you can't 'cause we all lose when we give up.

Super Bowl

"Super Bowl"

What is the super bowl?

Is it just a big game?

Or an epic meet?

To me, the super bowl

Is about spending time

With the ones I love and care

About, although I don't know

Who is playing right now,

I think that it's important

To spend time with family

Even if it's just once a year

Roses

"Roses"

Roses are the expression of love

There are many different types of roses

Just like there are many different types of love

Like the red rose that represents love

Though the only rose I want is
The black rose that is different

I want to be different from everyone else

Yet everyone tries to kill the black rose

The black rose that I cherish so much

They try to get rid of, try to say it's wrong

To be the black rose in the bunch

But I don't care, 'cause the black rose

Is the true me on the inside

Am I Dreaming

"Am I Dreaming?"

I thought that I heard you down the hall

I wanted to say "Hi" but you weren't there

I thought I started hearing the whispers

In the wind this morning as I walked

Into school, having eyes staring me down.

I know I did something when you walked up

To me and greeted me with a rose

I must be dreaming, 'cause this is not true

I think as you say "Happy valentine's day"

I think my outer wall just came down

Black, White Or Silver

Black,White Or Silver

We all at one point read the same novels

Some people say that reading is just words

That there's noting fun about reading

People like that can't see through the black and white

Of the pages that the words are written on

Unlike them, there is a few that can see past that

And see the silver or the imagination the author

Had in mind for the story to soar

Like lyrics to a song, words on a page can tell

Us a lot about their personalities

I just wish that people would see past the

Black and White, 'cause it's never two colors

Way Too Selfish

“Way Too Selfish”
I am way to selfish to have your love
But yet you give it to me like if it was water
I live for your love and die when you give it
To some one else who is less deserving
I’m sorry I am so selfish, living on the edge
But you let me be dependent on it

If it's the only thing keeping us alive

Our Mutual Relationship can't survive

Cherry Blossom Tree

Cherry Blossom Tree

You stand under the Cherry Blossom Tree

Waiting for the future to come

Are you blind to the rumors? They whisper in the wind

The butterflies carry the secret with them

The secret of life that flies and bees seem to understand

The secret of life that makes us so fragile

The secret that the spiders speak to me in a language

That you can't understand, the secret to life

Is in the trunk of the Cherry Blossom Tree

You still stand there like a statue

To this day trying to find the secret to life

I Think It's Me Not You....No It's You, For Reals

"That's crap" I say as I see walking into class. Your bronze skin glistens when the sun hits it. It sparkles, but not like a vampire, more like it was all your doing. You look at me with curious eyes as my jaw drops, I think I was looking pretty foolish to you by now, yet you never looked away for a second. You studied my features as I try, but can't look away. You have a certain ambiance about you, that captivated me last year. Now that I see you in the hallways, you still radiate more than my highliter pink pants, that I was told could be the second sun. So be glad that you still shine, even if it's just to me.